Back to Work Blues Part 2
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Baby Diego,
Tume has flown by with you growing day by day. You are now 5 months old and Im scheduled to go back to work on Tuesday Jan 31. It just as painful this time as it was the first time. My heart aches badly especially knowing that you are my last little one. Im going to miss seeing you wake up every morning with that huge smile on your face. Im going to miss our nursing moments with you clinging to me comfortably. Knowing that you will be with the next best person makes me feel anlittle better. You will be cared for by my momma, your mamaluz. She loves you as much as I do and wants the best for you. I will do my best to spend as much time as possible with you and your brother. Being my mom is my priority. The love that I have for you amd Lorenzo is endless. I love taking care of you and even though it can get rough sometimes, especially when Daddy is out to sea, there is no where else I would rather be. You are my joy, my heart, my life. Maybe I am just an overly emotional person or maybe I connect to humanity on another level of love and recognition, but I feel blessed to feel that way. I am told to hide my frelings, stay tough bit I cant, I wont. Its not fair, not at all. Im heartbroken. I love you always forever, everyday.
Mommy
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Lorenzo's Mom Week 15
Back to Work Blues!
Baby boy, today I had to leave you. I had to go back to work to help support our family. I want you to know that it was one of the hardest things I have had to do. The tears started rolling a few months back when I realized that my moments with you 24 hours a day would eventually come to and end. I keep crying and crying thinking about the things I may miss and missing our little routine. You are my life and every minute that I don't spend with you while you are still a little baby, just breaks my heart. I do know that this week will be good away from me because your daddy and auntie Cristina are going to stay with you. I feel good knowing that. But next week, you will be at daycare with a lady named Carrie. She gave me good vibes and I know that God sent her to us just for you. And although I'm still around, I will miss your smiles, the vision of your closed eyes while you nurse comfortably in my arms. I will miss not being your sole nurturer. I will do my best to have the best bonding moments with the few hours a day that I have with you. I love you with all of my heart.
Baby boy, today I had to leave you. I had to go back to work to help support our family. I want you to know that it was one of the hardest things I have had to do. The tears started rolling a few months back when I realized that my moments with you 24 hours a day would eventually come to and end. I keep crying and crying thinking about the things I may miss and missing our little routine. You are my life and every minute that I don't spend with you while you are still a little baby, just breaks my heart. I do know that this week will be good away from me because your daddy and auntie Cristina are going to stay with you. I feel good knowing that. But next week, you will be at daycare with a lady named Carrie. She gave me good vibes and I know that God sent her to us just for you. And although I'm still around, I will miss your smiles, the vision of your closed eyes while you nurse comfortably in my arms. I will miss not being your sole nurturer. I will do my best to have the best bonding moments with the few hours a day that I have with you. I love you with all of my heart.
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Lorenzo's Mom Week 21
In a few days you will be five months old. I can't believe how time has flown by. Your are getting so big and you are just adorable. You light up a room with your smile. Everyone that meets you falls in love. I pray that the joy you have now remains with you, always. I will do my best to keep that light turned on. I want the very best for you in every way that's accepting in Gods eyes. Always remember him and that he is why we have one another. I. Know that your soul chose your daddy and I as your parents and I am forever grateful for this opportunity that I dreamt about for so many years. I love you so much baby boy Lorenzo. I am enjoying as much as I can with the time that I have close to you. As you grow our interactions will grow and change as well. Right now you just love being with Mommy and Daddy. I can still happily hold you in my arms or just lay in bed and chat with you as you explore your surroundings. You love to cuddle and talk. You love to smile and be sang to. You love your hands and feet! You love staring at fixtures on the ceiling like lights and fans. you love textiles/patterns. You love staring at that little giraffe in your nursery that I so carefully decorated just for you. I'm so happy that you love looking at those little animals on the walls. You love to swing in your swing and the melodies that play will always be a part of my memory of your time as an infant. As you grow out of those things, I never will. They will play on in my heart. Your little face is at peace while you nap and its the most warming image. Your suckling motions remind me that you still need me and that I have so much more time to enjoy you God willing. I love you baby boy...always.
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